I’ve been having a lot of trouble getting motivated to write recently. I’m not really sure what’s going on. I think part of it is recovering from my insomnia (and all the related factors) and a cold from last week, but a big part of it is my Facebook newsfeed. I tend to get motivation and ideas from my friends on Facebook, but all the talk is about guns and I kind of hate that subject. Both sides of the argument tend to be extreme and unrealistic, and I find myself in the middle being attacked by both sides when I speak up. So, I just sit quietly and wait for this to pass.
I’m also having trouble motivating myself to exercise or read. I have had a lot of down time recently but can’t seem to do anything productive. I’ve put a Google Chrome app in place on my computer to limit my time on Facebook and other sites, but there are always distractions. I feel better today than I did all of last week, so maybe more writing, exercising, and reading will happen. Or maybe not. I don’t know.
Also, I am becoming kind of jaded on taking a stand online, particularly when my views may be controversial. It seems to never lead to a real discussion or debate, instead I stick my neck out there and become the target of ad hominen attacks. I’m not really hurt by these attacks, but it starts to feel like a waste of time. Then again, maybe I have some sort of duty to share my views because I am capable of doing it without harm. Many people may agree with me but are not able to speak up, and I could speak up for them. I have lots of views on subjects that people find uncomfortable (ie sex, drugs, nudity, etc) and maybe I should just take my own advice and let my freak flag fly when it comes to my views, just like I do when I discuss my actions.
I don’t know, I’m just babbling at this point…